Every mechanism of what makes you “you” has to be on the same page for the evolutionary process of Soul Growth to function smoothly.
Spirit: It does not matter where you perceive yourself to be in Life; your starting point is always somewhere along the River of Love that your Soul is already carried in. When you begin isn’t when you truly begin, it’s just a point in time when other people are let in on the development and growth of your Soul.
Michi: Why would I let in others to witness my Soul Growth?
Spirit: The opportunities for growth created by baring your Soul for others always come after an extended period of time in which you were solitary. The inner reservoir that builds after holding energy within that was normally expelled becomes extremely potent. At some point, the lid pops off to let your Life Force back out again. Each period, whether solitary or not, is a necessary part of the ebb and flow of the natural and healthy growth of your Soul.
Michi: …I’ve gotten a lot of time to understand the importance of being solitary as it pertains to familiarizing myself with the Nature of my Soul.
Spirit: You can understand only partly through solitary means. In a solitary experience, you find out who you are from space and allowance. In a social experience, you find out who you are in relation to others. Those relations change as your Soul evolves. The Soul does grow out of the relationship dynamics it previously felt comfortable inside of and the experience isn’t much different from the growing pains associated with any other kind of growth. At first, there is discomfort, followed by the realization that the shoes you wore before no longer fit.
Michi: My Soul outgrows the ego it was held in.
Spirit: Yes, the ego that gathered its awareness from its prior surroundings becomes a limiting shell for the Soul that seeks to continuously expand. This doesn’t happen once or twice in a lifetime, but over and over again — as many times as it’s permitted.
Michi: My ego can stop my Soul from its growth?
Spirit: Every mechanism of what makes you “you” has to be on the same page for the evolutionary process of Soul Growth to function smoothly. The train does not leave the station if there’s a mighty resistant force at the engine putting all its weight into a determined act of defiance.
Michi: Is the ego ultimately afraid of the unknown?
Spirit: The ego is wise to equate what it doesn’t know as its “death.” Its demise certainly comes when the Soul wishes to grow, but its fear is unfounded. What the ego sees as an end is only a means to its new beginning. The Soul knows this, but the ego isn’t capable of seeing what isn’t already in front of it. The Soul’s job then becomes about how to make the ego aware that everything is (and is going to be) OK, even when what the ego knew to be its stable reality is already vanishing out from underneath its feet.
Michi: The Soul feels like it’s being liberated from oppressive confinement.
Spirit: Yes, but the ego feels like it’s losing touch with everything and everyone it once based its entire identity from. The feeling of “not knowing who you are anymore” is attached to the ego’s attempts at putting out feelers to formulate a concept of itself based upon its surroundings. How it sees itself fit in (or not) with the people, places, and beliefs of its environment is what the ego determines to be the reality. Once the Soul requests expansion from My Love, the ego’s version of reality starts to slip through its fingers, and the Soul begins to pry open the perception of its most intimate collaborator.